2.四 你得看过海啸才能叫见道和罗素的3种激情-第2/2页



Ihavesoughtlove,first,becauseitbringsecstasy-ecstasysogreatthatIwouldoftenhavesacrificedalltherestoflifeforafewhoursofthisjoy.Ihavesoughtit,next,becauseitrelievesloneliness--thatterriblelonelinessinwhichoneshiveringlooksovertherimoftheworldintothecoldunfathomablelifelessabyss.Ihavesoughtitfinally,becauseintheofloveIhaveseen,inamysticminiature,theprefiguringoftheheaventhatsaintsandpoetshaveimagined.ThisiswhatIsought,andthoughitmightseemtoogoodforhumanlife,thisiswhat--atlast--Ihavefound.

WithequalIhavesoughtknowledge.Ihavewishedtounderstandtheheartsofmen.Ihavewishedtoknowwhythestarsshine.AndIhavetriedtoapprehendthePythagoreanpowerbywhichnumberholdsswayabovetheflux.Alittleofthis,butnotmuch,Ihaveachieved.

Loveandknowledge,sofarastheywerepossible,ledupwardtowardtheheavens.Butalwayspitybroughtmebacktoearth.Echoesofcriesofpainreverberateinmyheart.Childreninfamine,victimstorturedbyoppressors,helplessoldpeopleaburdentotheirsons,andthewholeworldofloneliness,poverty,andpainmakeamockeryofwhathumanlifeshouldbe.Ilongtoalleviatethisevil,butIcannot,andItoosuffer.

Thishasbeenmylife.Ihavefounditworthliving,andwouldliveitagainifthechancewereofferedme.



但是,我觉得,如果我要只能选一个的话,我选知识。

我喜欢苏格拉底的推断,他并不喜欢那些模糊的景象,他喜欢那些模糊的对岸的真实。

那就是知识。

在佛学里的认知,爱,是渴爱,是无明的。

但我并没有觉得这个说法是贬义。

这里的渴爱,也是一种纯粹的欲。**,一旦纯粹,也没有什么不好的。

也许有说这是无明,但无明也不过就是你的资粮啊,无明又不欠你什么的。




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